Best Day of Your Life
I have been contemplating what to write about for this post ever since I saw it on the blog challenge list. At the risk of being much more morose than intended, here is what I consider the best day of my life...so far.
On a rare, perfect April day in Nebraska, free of wind and with a perfect temperature, my father-in-law, Howard, my husband, Trevor, and I headed to a nearby lake. The middle of the week in April meant that we were the only ones on the lake. I had taken a day off from my super-stressful job. Trevor had taken the day off to spend with me. Howard had tagged along because we don't get to go fishing without him!
After fishing for a while, I decided to pull in my lines and just lay down in the front of the boat. I didn't feel quite like myself, so I was just going to lay down in the sunshine and meditate. I thought about the last few years, about the people I had lost, my Grandma, and Step-Grandpa, Trevor's various aunts and uncles...it had been a tough couple of years. As usual, I kind of talked to my Grandma in my head. I told her that I finally felt like I was going to be okay...without her.
I also thought about what the doctor had told Trev and I about our inability to get pregnant. He wanted me to go to a specialist in Omaha; but that was not in our modest budget. Every three months I had to go into the doctor (if I hadn't had a period) to have a pregnancy test and, when they knew for sure I wasn't pregnant, they would give me medicine to force a period and start the process all over again. What fun!
I knew it was about time to go in again, and that always made me a bit poopy. However, as I laid there thinking that I really should not be feeling nauseous on a boat that wasn't even rocking...the lakes like glass...I suddenly realized something. I was nauseous; I had been super tired lately; my boobs hurt...Oh my goodness! I knew! I knew I was pregnant!
Even though I knew I was prego, I didn't want to get Trevor's hopes up without proof...so I just laid there on the boat deck, smiling, soaking up the sun and the peace and the happiness. I dreamed about our little boy who would be ornery and naughty and smart just like Trevor...I just knew it was a boy. I took in the wonder, the responsibility, the joy that comes to you when you realize you are going to be a parent.
That whole day was wonderful! Life was perfect.
As the next few months train-wrecked around Trevor and I, I often looked back to this wonderful day. I think you need days like that to bolster you for the bad times. In June, a friend of ours fell to her death while at work. In July, two co-workers I was particularly close to me had major losses...One lost her sister to anorexia; Another was in a traffic accident with her whole family. Her 16 year old daughter was killed; her young son had major head trauma. Then on August 31, my baby boy, Hank, was still born. As if that wasn't horrible enough, September saw a 25-year old young man who worked for Trevor killed in another car wreck.
It was quite honestly a terrible summer. Tragedy really does make you appreciate the simple, perfect days all that much more.
Have a great day, and take care of you!